1. Run Away

    Maybe it’s silly of me, a naive wish of some stupid, lovesick girl. But I wish you would take me with you, when you leave. I wish we could go lose ourselves to the world, and find what we lost in the places we’ve only dreamed of.

    I don’t think that will happen though. Maybe in a movie, in a book, in a story. But those girls don’t have these weights on their shoulders, those girls can leave.

    Even if you wanted to take me away with you, I don’t know if I could leave. Because if I did, how could I ever come back?

    Loving you is the single most selfish vice I have ever allowed myself to indulge in. But I think it is one of the most selfless too. They say that everyone deserves to be happy, and I can only hope that includes me too.


  2. Mindful

    After your absense
    I’ve learned that I can love you
    Without losing myself

    I’ve given you enough
    I can keep something for myself


  3. I missed you, and I knew you missed me too.

    I didn’t think it would happen
    Didn’t expect it
    Wanted it to, but knew it wouldn’t
    I had laid my head on your knee out of habit
    Wanting to be closer to you but knowing not to push
    But then I felt you start to stroke my hair
    Your fingers gently playing with it, pulling softly
    Trailing down my back
    Touching me with urgent familiarity
    That my skin remembered all too well
    And I couldn’t stand it anymore
    I had missed you too much for too long
    So when I turned my face up to kiss you
    I didn’t hold back
    I didn’t expect the same ardor
    But your kisses were just as hungry as mine

  4. <3

    Thank you :)


  5. "It had flaws, but what does that matter when it comes to matters of the heart? We love what we love. Reason does not enter into it. In many ways, unwise love is the truest love. Anyone can love a thing because. That’s as easy as putting a penny in your pocket. But to love something despite. To know the flaws and love them too. That is rare and pure and perfect."
    — Patrick Rothfuss, The Wise Man’s Fear

  7. Circles

    Sometimes I get these ideas in my head
    Especially when I haven’t slept
    Tomorrow’s morning rolls around
    And I’m not quite in the present
    I make a scrapbook of my past
    Cutting it up into an idealistic future

    But none of it makes sense
    Because things aren’t the same anymore
    Friends moved away
    New ones were made
    You left
    I found someone that wants to stay

    But you’re coming home tomorrow
    Or is that today?
    You know how the time change
    Fucks with the days
    See, I’m wandering again,
    Getting lost in the words
    The point I can’t seem to make
    Is that even though everything is different
    I’m still the same
    My feelings haven’t changed


  8. "
    1. push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

      2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

      3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.

      4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

      5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

      6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

      7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

      8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

      9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

      10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

      11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

      12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

      14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

      15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

      16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

    Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness  (via baimbie)

    I used to love these

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    (Source: emma-elsworthy, via ashtheblueeyedpoet)


  9. Limits

    Do not confine me by those trademark expectations
    You know me better than that
    Do not imply that I need permission
    To do as I please
    I did not ever let you tell me what I could or could not do
    Why the fuck would I have changed for him
    When I didn’t even do that for you?


  10. Condenced

    I don’t understand
    How you can fill me with utter elation
    And fury
    Mixed with desolation
    All at the same time
    In a single conversation
    Consisting of a few lines