1. Him vs. You

    I think I figured out
    The difference
    Between you and him
    He’s comfortable
    It’s peaceful, something like the way sleep
    Is supposed to be (Nothing like my violent dreams)
    Even the sex, it’s like we’ve been together for years
    It’s casual and nice
    But with you…
    I had the comfort too
    Easy as breathing
    But you made my heart race
    Every time I saw you
    Even the regular nights were exciting
    And a minor touch
    Could make the butterflies in my stomach
    Go wild
    But there was more than that
    I was happy to just lay with you
    Linger in the darkness
    Struggle to stay awake just to be with you a little longer
    But with him…There are no butterflies
    Maybe there is lust
    But with you…There was love too.


  2. Stubborn

    I want you to know that I’m not giving up
    That I still love you
    And always will
    Until my last breath
    I will never stop trying
    Will never stop wishing for
    Another chance
    But I also know
    That right now
    Isn’t the right time
    And that I have to wait
    But that does not mean
    That I have given up


  3. Old Habits

    I can’t lie to you and promise
    That this isn’t going to change
    But I do promise that I’ll try
    And that I won’t just go the easy way
    Even though it’s habit now
    And tempting beyond words
    You don’t know all my vices
    Trust in shadows always leads to pain


  4. Nobody Understands Us

    1. Jayme: I want to smoke.
    2. Me: I want to fuck. We can't always get what we want though.
    3. Jayme: But sometimes...YOU GET WHAT YOU NEEEEEED!
    4. Me: ... -.-

  5. "I wonder if you know yet that you’ll leave me. That you are a child playing with matches and I have a paper body. You will meet a girl with a softer voice and stronger arms and she will not have violent secrets or an affection for red wine or eyes that never stay dry. You will fall into her and I’ll go back to spending Friday nights with ones who never learn my last name. I have chased off every fool who has tried to sleep beside me. You think it’s romantic to fuck the girl who writes poems about you. You think I’ll understand your sadness because I live inside my own. But I will show up at your door at 2am, wild eyed and sleepless and try and find some semblance of peace in your breastbone and you will not let me in. You will tell me to go home."

  6. "The vodka is not enough. The cigarettes are never enough. But you, my dear, you were always enough."
    — I can’t stop drinking and I miss you like hell (via youremybrokenbones)

    (via schtef)


  7. An Apology

    I’m sorry (in advance)
    For the pain I will undoubtedly cause you

    I care about the aftermath
    That I will leave in my wake
    It is not my intention to hurt you (But I will)

    You’ve come in late to the game
    And you cannot win over
    Something that belongs to another

    In another world (one without him)
    Everything would be different
    And maybe falling for you
    Wouldn’t break me too

    I only wish you could have seen
    How unlike this was of me (until he left)
    But he took away too much
    And this mess is all that’s left (it won’t be enough)
    You deserve better than that


  8. Mantra

    Maybe if I keep telling myself that I’m okay
    I can keep the pain at bay

    I feel like I’m drowning
    But I’m too numb to really care

    It’s like I’m drunk and just can’t understand
    I keep wondering where you went
    The boy I fell in love with
    The one who made me feel safe


  9. Connected

    I fell so hard for you
    That I’m not sure I would survive
    Another fall

    The red string wrapped
    Around my heart
    Pulls me toward you
    No matter how far away
    You are

  10. Double exposure of me